A dose of laughter, a dose of joy, fun and enjoyment coupled w a dozen of genuine love and happiness - that's the medicine to cure my sickness :) Okay, maybe throw in a couple of panadol too.Woke up really grouchy today cos of my pretty high fever and was rly tempted to just nuah on my bed. But I'm rly glad tt I was such a stubborn bitch who wouldn't give myself a break and rather suffer of fatigue than to miss spending time w my girlfriends :)

Was supposed to be at xin's place by 12 to setup the area so that we could hopefully get her down by 1 but in the end, we only got there at about 1! Haha there was many lapse in btwn somemore. Firstly, everything was v last min, as usual. & I even forgot to bring her present! :O In the end, i had to run back to get it while sweets bought the party hats and the deco for us. Hehe. Then, at 12.09, while we were still running the errands, tharsh and tay was on their way to yishun alr so I called canadian pizza and they told me tt they'd arrive around one. In the end, they called me at 12.33 and told me tt they have arrived when sweets and I were still in the train and the other two were waiting for the shuttle bus. Thirdly, the 2 goondoos waited half an hour for the bus to no avail! Why?! Cos they were waiting at the wrong area!! Haha in the end when we arrived, all four of us ended in a cab w some weird Malay taxi driver. Hahaha.

Did the prep and poor sweets had to blow all the balloons cos none of us had the energy to do it cos it was rly hard! Heh but i helped in a couple tho i made quite abit of a booboo! :P Finally we were done at around 1:30 and called HG to bring her down. Unfortch much, xin heard my voice through his phone -.- Hahaha but she just played along luh and we sort of surprised her w her pizza 'cake', followed by food and games. Heh, although it was no high party nor a v happening one, I really did truly enjoy myself and I'm sure they all did too! Although the amount we paid in total were pretty ridiculous (haha), I didn't even feel much of a pinch cos it was rly well spent. It kinda reminded me of this article on the mag, where they say the amount spent on having quality time is better than spending on material goods. Really really truly apt :)

I'm glad for today not only because I get to spend time w my girlfriends and darlings, but also because it was a chance to get to know hg and randall better. To be honest, I was rly pretty much worried initially. Worried about hg feeling uncomfy so I brought kian along, worried that tharsh would get uncomfy if randall came too so we didnt rly invite him and I subsequently felt really bad about it (bec he actually offered to cook spaggadies for us) so I asked tharsh to invite randall along when tay said she had to leave to meet him, worried that everything would be awkward. But i'm too much of a worry wart, I really am. Cos everything just fit in fine. HG was a lot more outgoing that I thought he was, and I really did enjoy his company as much as I enjoyed the girls'. Although randall spent lil time w us and didnt really talk much (I would have done worse if I was him! Hahaha), he was really friendly and pleasant too. I somehow have this feeling that these two guys are pretty genuine people and I'm sooo glad tt both Tay and xin :) And of cos, tharsh being tharsh, wasn't that uncomfy afterall but I still somehow hope that one day her mr right will come along! :) You know tharsh, if you're reading it, I'm really so glad for a friend like you. For a friend whom I can totally be comfortable and not be on tenterhooks cos you'll be straight forward w your feelings w me. Love you friend! :)

You know, I think the 4 of us came a long way. Really we did. I remember in sec 3 where we first met each other (Xin had a secret nickname for me -.-), i never really thought we'd end up as such good friends. We all went through ups and downs. Esp with tay. How she was in and out, in and out, in and out. Honestly, looking back now, it was because we were v blinded by immaturity and rashness. We didnt understand the meaning of acceptance and how it's also the essence to keep a friendship going. I guess, that was how we lost beat too.. But in any case, i'm glad that tay really did make the effort to work this friendship out. I must say, if it wasnt for her, we would still be the trio. She was the one who actually asked tharsh to meet up w us even though she knew that the one who will be in the most awkward position was her. Even though there was a high chance things may not work afterall, and despite the fact that we did make her really upset before and all those childish things tt we did. But she did anyway and I really admire her for that because I wouldn't have that courage, but she did. :) Outsiders may see this reconciliation as a form of a back up or just to 'make our clique look bigger' after beat sort of disappeared for our lives. Whatever they say, I don't care because to me and to us, what is happening is just basically the outcome of genuine friendship. Although we have not reached the 'deep talking' stage yet, i'm sure that stage will come soon. :) & I really hope, this time, she'd never be out again. & This thursday, we will be watching the germany-spain match tgt, hopefully in tharsh's place and I really can't wait!! Cos I just can't get enough of these girls and their company. Today was really so worth it :) Although I really hope just one fine day, beat will be back in the picture as well.

Other than tharsh, I doubt the other two will be reading this but I just wanna say, thank you so much for the memories which will be kept deeply in my heart. I'm not the kind that will say best friends forever anymore because I don't quite believe in the word forever already, but i'd still say that each of you are as precious as a gem to me and I really hope that we'd have many more birthdays to celebrate and world cup to watch ;) I love you girlfriends! Huggs

 I have work in like.. 1.5 hours time? Hmm better make this fast and furious man! Haha after long considerations, i have decided to continue working. Heh, actually it's more of bec I'M FINALLY DOING A METRO 20% SALES!! & i guess that is kinda gonna be my last day at work bec i heard tt the curriculum in NUS is pretty heavy so i doubt i'd continue working when school starts tho i told Sheila that i'd consider staying on. Haha she'll prolly F me but whatever, she hired new girls again! Heh. Exciting muchz, hopefully it will be good! But i suspect it's actually metro's plan to divert attention from the newly open ALT @ Heeren ( which is under BHG btw ). Haha pretty smart i must say but too many monthly sales will just kill metro i think but oh wellz, not my problem. Heh

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THARSHINI KARTHIGESAN,
today's your final paper alr! I know things have been pretty rough on you esp on monday's episode but my dear, pls don't lose faith and heart. You are a lot more than what you make yourself out to be, than what you think you are. You have no idea just what a beautiful, kind hearted girl you are, who definitely deserve to be loved! & please believe me when i tell you that you're not the problem, you really ain't. Obstacles are always there for us to pass through, problems will always come our way but hey, it will only make you stronger k and i'll be there to pass through all the nonsense alright? As I always say, bad times will pass just like how good times come to an end, so don't lose hope yeah? Love you plentiful my beautiful friend :) Huggs.

 

AHHH I NEED TO CURB MY URGE TO SHOP LIKE SRSLY! THIS MONTH, I HAVE BEEN SPENDING MY MONEY LIKE FREEE. ON USS & MINI GETAWAY, COSMETICS (ON ETTUSAIS! OMGGG.), FOOD AND OF COS, SHOPPING. OMG I SRSLY NEED TO GO FOR SOME SHOPAHOLIC WORKSHOPS. Like those, SOS i'm a horrible shopaholic workshop. Hahaha. Gosh, i rly dk if i should get the 3 items! But I guess since sales have been so brilliant to me today (2k plus for me lehhh. Hahaha), I should reward myself right, no? Hahahaha, we shall seeee. :) Can't wait till 26th where i get my biotherm pay. But then again, it's the day where sweets enters army and I rly don't want that. ): I never rly knew tt I would dread this day, as much as I never knew I wanted to enter fass that badly. Sighhh. Anw, i'm excited for breakfast tmr man boyfriend! Haha. Alrightxz, enough of rambling! Bye!

Hiiii, it has been a nong nong time hasnt it? :) well, i'm kinda a lazy person as many can see. :P anw i'm so so excited for tmr! It's like a packed off day (though i have had many off days prior to this alr. :/ ) haha. Anw anw, tmr i'm gonna go for the biotherm spa for only 45$!!! It's like 50% discount babeh! :) plus after tt, it's lunch w mich ( and to collect the clothes) since her lunch is also free and easy :) and thereafter, either a shopping trip by myself or with tharsh and friend! And then it's ice cream and hopefully dinner with her and adeline. :) eggcited or what man! Anw i have decided tt thou shall not spend on online shopping anymore or at least for this month since i am spending a bomb on the facial and and i have so many skincare products i wanna buy. :)

ooo and, ettusais here i come! :D i hope i get like packed schedule plus some off days for sweets before he leave for army. ):



'Why do I still care or feel that way?' is a constant question running through my mind now.

Life is all about trusting your feelings and taking chances. Losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories and learning from the pain. And most of all, realizing that people always change.


Got that from jess' blog. :) People will always change, people will come and go from your life. Some may leave behind large and nicely printed footprints, some may be tiny while some may be ugly. Many things happen for a reason, hell yeah, i'm a believer of that and how things will always turn for the better. After all, it can't possibly rain all day and forever. & I'm glad that my rain has stopped in a way, I'm much happier and am able to let go of that bitterness bit by bit. It's not totally gone, it's still there but definitely subsiding. But you know, sometimes I wonder, do people really really change? Or is it that you don't know them well enough and yet you thought you did. So when you actually saw through their true colours, you thought that they have changed but in actual fact, they didn't. That's a big question for me too, it's smthg I'd like to pursue but it's like a bottomless pit and it may cause unneccessary unhappiness as well. But in any case, to all those that have stuck through me all these while, through my rantings and complains, through my tears and my moodiness, and walked me out of this whole turmoil and giving me advice, thank you v much and I really do love each and everyone of you. *muack*


On a random note, sighh, work in 12.5 hours time ): But nvm at least I'm being paid more tmr :)